Lazy me...

Hello You!
Yes I know, I said I was going to write every week... but, yes there is always an but, I had an eye infection so I couldn't see for a week! It is disgusting! I couldn't sleep without my eyes growing together! I had had it for 3 days when my niece said to me: "yeah, I think you should see a doctor!" so I did and got eye drops and now I am fine. Another reason I haven't been writing is because my family and I are painting and redecorating our living room, and it is pretty cool I have to say!
   I have been so lazy this month and have nothing interesting to tell you. I am going to Denmark though next Friday and I am so excited! So hopefully I have something to write about when I come home from there! But since there is nothing special happening I am going to write about One Direction’s new album, “Take Me Home”. I have it and I have listened to it a hundred times!!! It is so amazing! These boys are so inspiring and fun and really good looking! So there is nothing that I can critique them with! I thought I’d share their new 2 videos with you, just for fun!   

 

Live While We're Young 

Little things

 

Kiss you Live

Enjoy Life and let go!

Elisabeth

What Makes You Happy?

I feel so sad and depressed after my last post and started to think of things that makes me happy. There are a lot of things that makes me laugh, my siblings, my dogs, my friends, photos, TV shows. Laughter is all around us! A vice man once said: “There are the little things around us that make us happy!” And there is nothing but truth in that sentence. 

     Music makes me happy! If I am feeling down I just put my favourite record on and I get happy right away. I think music got a healing power, like a hug or a smile. If you fill your soul and mind with music nothing can go wrong! Watching YouTube videos also makes me happy. Seeing someone doing something that makes them happy makes me happy. I also love writing! A story, poems, my blog, seeing on paper what I am thinking is very healing for me. It is kind a like talking to a shrink. I like to read, I like to watch telly, I like to sleep, there are so many things that make me happy but sometimes it is just hard to remember those things.

   Then there are the little things in our life’s that makes us laugh. When my brother is dancing like Elvis or when my sister is being silly and telling jokes. I am most happy when I am with my siblings. Just doing something simple like watching telly or playing cards. Even when we are fighting over the computer or over football, the time I spend with my siblings is the time I treasure the most.
   If you are not feeling happy, something is not right. If you can’t remember the last time you laughed but the last time you cried was an hour ago, I recommend you to see a doctor. Through my teenage years I felt miserable most of the time. At the time I was at my worst I stopped singing and whistling, I stopped laugh and smile. I knew I was depressed but what I didn’t know was that depression is not a weakness it is illness. But 7 months ago I went to see my doctor and he put on a medication and I have felt happy since then. But I still have my down days but it doesn’t happen very often. My last depression breakdown was weeks ago.

   But when I feel down I make a list of what makes me happy: music, movies, dogs, cows, family, nature, YouTube, BlogSpot, chocolate, shopping, sleep, design houses, drawing, writing, partying, dancing, singing, talking, LAUGHING!!!
   Make sure, if you are reading, that you leave your list of happiness in the comments. I am now listening to my favourite song that just popped up on the radio, writing my blog and my family is sitting in the living room so I am feeling pretty happy and pretty tired!
   Until next time, enjoy life and let go!  

Elisabeth

    

Back to the future!

Other week means another blog. And I thought I’d write about the future. It’s a scary word, a scary feeling. When I was young I was asked, like most of you, “what are you gonna do in the future?” And I would say that I was going to be a spice-girl, a designer, a spy, a teacher, an astronaut, everything that I could think of! But now that future is here, I have absolutely no idea what I want to be or what to do!

Being a grown up, an adult, is not easy, handling responsibility, make decisions, pay bills, all of that is really hard, especially when you are still living at home with your parents and they keep asking the same question over and over again: “what are you gonna do with your life...?” I get a lump in my neck every time I hear this question because I have honestly no idea what I am going to do with my life. And I don’t want to think of about it. Now that the future is here it means that there is no way back. Your time of decisions has run out and you have to do something. NOW! You have to work, you have to get a job, don’t like it? Well I don’t care. It doesn’t matter if you are miserable, you need money and you need to be something! There is no time to think! You had plenty of time to think when you were a kid, now that you are a “grown up” you have to jump in the sea and swim, even though you can’t swim you have to stay away from drowning. And it is tough! 

   So miss future is a bitch, a bully, not at all what you expect it to be and you have to deal with it. Do not cry, only baby’s cry, not adults.
   I go to bed every night with a knot in my stomach, thinking: tomorrow is another day that I have to think about the future. I am going to be told to find a job and been rubbed in the face that I quit school. Future is mean, not to know is a horrible feeling. Failing a test is horrible so what if I fail life. What will happen? I am afraid that I am going to fail life, that I am going to fall off a cliff into the sea and drown. So I just stay still. That way I won’t fall.

   But recently I have started to take tiny steps towards the future. It makes me feel good but it also makes me cry. I just want to be a little kid for a while! Just play with my toys and don’t worry about a thing.  I want to go to sleep and don’t wake up until I am ready to wake up.
   So now I am living day by day, job hunting and house hunting, working on my driver’s license so I can get away. I don’t want to but I have to. Hopefully life will get easier at some point, maybe when I don’t have to go through it alone. I pray every night that life will get better so now I am going to pray some more.

   Well that is enough of complaining for now. I got this of my chest and it feels a little lighter. So now I am going to watch Robin Hood and get inspired and laugh a little bit to lift my spirit. And my brother is dancing like Elvis so that also makes me laugh so don’t forget the little things that make you smile, even though you are having a bad day! Until next week, enjoy life and let go!            

Elisabeth