Lets Try This Again

So... Not a great start on my blog... two blog-posts in what, three months? Well there is an explanation but no excuse. Every single time I am going to write a post my head goes blank. I sit down with my computer and nothing happens! This is wired because there is no problem for me to write down stupid things and stories as long as I write it in a book. If I write something down in a book it makes more sense, get more real. It gets a soul!  So from now on I am going to write all my posts in my diary before I put it on my computer!

    It is also good to clear my head at nights. When I’m going to sleep it takes at least one or two hours to shut my head down.  But if I write down what I am thinking my brain shuts down easier. Like now, I am in my pj’s and was going to sleep when I thought about my blog and how I screwed up and was thinking of a way to fix it. So I started to make a blog post in my head, like I do so many nights, and said to myself: “ Elisabeth, go get your diary and write it down so you won’t forget it in the morning!” And here we go, I finally got a blog post up!
    But since we are catching up I am going to tell you what a great month October has been so far! I’ve met loads of new people and hardly been home. So here we go.
   I went on a “weekend-fun” where people all over the country from age 16 to 30 come together for one weekend and just have fun. We were 15 and I knew nobody when I came there. No one wanted to go with me and I really didn’t want to go on my own and almost dropped out. I am so glad that I didn´t, I had the most fun I have had in my life and made 14 new good friends! It was so great and this group of people were so nice and kind and welcomed me with opened arms! I have never in my life felt so good! I am shy and I find it hard to talk to new people and make new friends but it was so easy that weekend. I can’t describe how happy I felt!

   But moving on to the next thing I did. I went on a Peace Þing in my capital city, Reykjavík. A Peace Þing is a council about peace and how to make peace on earth by finding inner peace and it is hosted by scouts. There where scouts from all around Europe. I went, again, alone because no one wanted to come with me but when I arrived I was so pleased to see one of my dearest friend there so I wasn’t alone all the weekend. I also met new people there, four guys from Georgia, they were all really kind and funny and tought me some things about their nation so I added on my bucket list “visit Georgia”.
   So in October I made 18 new friends which is more then I’ve made the whole last year! I went to these things alone and I’m glad to say I am proud of myself for doing it! This time last year I was in so dark place that I wasn’t sure if I was gonna make it through life. But when you hit the bottom there is only one way to go and that way is up. Life is treating me wonderfully now and I’m glad I didn’t give up. I was on a cross roads and was so afraid to go on a new journey alone. But I finally decided to just close my eyes and jump, the only thing that could happen was that I would fall in the hole again but I decided to never give up and just climb up again, gladly I haven’t fallen yet but I am on a journey, alone, and it is hard but I am staying strong and keeping on! 

   But in the moment I am one lucky bunny. Beside making loads of new friends and learning new things about the world and myself this month I also got something new. A... new... CAR!!! I am so excited about it! I had been waiting for that moment for two years and finally it arrived! I named it Oliver and he is my new toy.
   Another excited news... wow I love life in the moment, I am going to Denmark in the end of November!!! I am going on a “youth-week” which is similar to the “weekend-fun” I went on beside it is a whole week and there are kids from age of 18 to 30 years old from all over Scandinavia and only 5-6 people from each country and I got chosen! I can’t believe it! And once and again I am going on this journey on my own but since it has worked so well for me travelling on my own I am not worried and not being worried is a good feeling. I am currently teaching my mom not to be worried and it is not working very well but hopefully we will get there in the end.
    Well I think that is it for now, I have no more excited news for you and I am getting really sleepy. But until next week, that is a promise, enjoy life and let go!!!

Elisabeth